Well first off I suppose. Just got back from a mini-trip to Tremblant, which was, probably one of the worst family vacations I've been on. We were to leave early Friday morning, and Mike (my brother) was coming home by train Thursday. Except he's ridiculously ill, like the sickest I've ever seen anyone. If it were me, I'd be in the hospital. He's coughing and throwing up all the time, not eating, can barely keep down liquids, etc. He's been to the doctor, so they have it under control I'm sure. That being said, when at Tremblant (time share condo thing, upstairs area, as well as downstairs area, for future reference) I didn't want to leave him alone during the day, while my parents were off skiing. So I was stuck inside watching TV and such, and then at night it was either sleep downstairs on the floor (since I can't seep up right in a chair, and Mike had the bed) with Mike hacking and vomiting all night, or sleep upstairs on this tiny little lounge chair (parents had the bed) with my parents snoring like mad. So both nights I went to bed at around at 5am, and had about 5 hours cumulative sleep over the two nights.
So now I'm dead. And my Florida trip is on Thursday and we get up at 5 or so to leave. Hop on a plane to Toronto, and then take a plane from there to Florida, and we're there for 10 days. And I'm a little nervous. I thought this Tremblant trip would be good gauge of where I am, in terms of tolerating different things. As it stands now, my tolerance level is about a 2. If Florida goes as poorly for whatever reason, and I'm stuck there for 10 days, I'll go crazy. For managing shallow emotional stuff I've got my Valium (which I've never had, only Lorazepam) my MP3 player, and my portable DVD player. So things might go well. Though I hate sitting around, ie. in flight will be good, but when I'm on the ground and haven't left yet, it's like there's still time to change my mind. And then once I'm there, what am I going to do for 10 days? I mean, maybe I'll be cool with going out and doing events, and maybe I won't. And if I want to sit around, what will I fill my time with? It's not like I'll have games, or my guitar down there. Zoinks.
New update on the friend whom I posted about below. I spoke to a friend of hers (Ais), who's also my friend, I met both of them on the same day. I told her my problems with the situation, and she confirmed them somewhat being like 'yeah, she's gotten weird lately, we don't speak much either'. During this MSN conversation, 'problem friend' was online, but shown as 'Away', and we all know people just put up random statuses so as not to be bothered by people they don't want to talk to. So I told Ais to try talking to her and see what would happen. She did, and told me they were now talking. I called BS, because frankly I could fathom, as a stretch, my friend being too busy to call me back or being just plain forgetful, but to outright ignore me? There was no way. So Ais quickly posted a section of their conversation and suffice it to say I was shocked. So I quickly tried to start a conversation with my friend, and shockingly I got no response. I'm not sure what this means. We never had any sort of argument, or falling out. I can think of absolutely no reason why she would be outright refusing to talk to me, or respond to me. I don't want to be an ass and harass her, and hopefully that's not what it sounds like I am/doing on here, I'm just a little hurt now. A lot of the people I've talked to (who either know the personal background or not) say to just leave it alone, let her go, etc. To me that seems excessive. To just kind of cut this person off, especially since something seems to be the matter, on her end anyways. At the very least, I'll basically write her an email or something, with some flashy title so she'll see it, and then explain myself. After that, I don't know what to do. Kinda makes me sad :(